Saturday, September 29, 2007
learning to dance for You
Seems my own arrogance has knocked me off my feet again When you know I'm crawling to You as fast as I can First teach me to walk And then I'll learn to dance for You Like an honest clumsy clown Tripping along the way Cause I am reaching for You When my arms aren't long enough And I am running to You If I go a little faster And I am crying to You But I can't hear my own voice And I am waiting for You And I'm trying not to fall asleep now Cause I am clumsily dancing away this fear I am stumbling closer to You and I'm Tumbling over my pride I will be a fool for You-Fool
Lifehouse
i'm learning... bear with me... stumbling closer to You.
Labels: learning
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Thursday, September 27, 2007
perspective
sometimes i struggle with the feeling that my best is not enough... i let myself get caught up in concern and worry... and i know that u have to find that balance between compassion or empathy... and well... anxiousness which ultimately renders you useless and ineffective.
Cast your cares on the Lord and He will sustain you; He will never let the righteous fall
- Psalm 55:22
Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you.
-1 Peter 5:7
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
-Phillipians 4:6
I'm doing my best to focus on You... regain perspective... realizing that i need to focus on You to stop myself from getting overwhelmed... everything else just fades away...

in Your freedom i will live
i offer devotion
Labels: bible verses, freedom, security, struggles
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Tuesday, September 25, 2007
hilarious moments over the weekend:
torquay:
- beach... playing gang up tiggy... going after IH near the water, IH trying to dodge me... and diving into the water... still getting tagged... HAHA
- GY, CL and myself scoring JL on his abilities... dress sense... humor... anything and everything that came up... hahah poor guy... seriously bullied by us girls.. hehe
- the freezing cold showers... maaaannnnnnn agony!
- must be the drought... hehehe
- hahahaha CL telling me the name game story about her dad... i think i laughed for 10 minutes straight
- BY and his poses!!!!!! stole the show!!!
dinner with JT:
- hahaha stories of little JT... mannnn... u started way too early... u ladies man.. hahahaha
- u had me laughing before you even finished the stories... hahaha
(happy birthday JT! thanks for always being there for me... ur texts and calls... prayer and encouragement... randomness... awesome hugs and warm smile. you're an awesome guy! booyah!)
CL and KP's bday thing:
- wonderwoman wonderwoman... batman batman... superman superman... ultraman ultraman... VH u have the fobbiest accent i have EVER heard..... u had me in hysterics... that combined with the actions... killed me... hahahahahhaa... highlight of the night
- if i drew a triangle between these three glasses... who's triangle would it be? hahahahaha
- VH and AP trying to outdo one another... and VH trying to prove he still had co-ordination... doing a handstand and hitting the rubbish bin... "it hit ME!" hahahah
- AY's antics during the present presentation
great times... =D now i really should get onto my assignments and revision. HA!
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Thursday, September 20, 2007
reality of growing up
trying to collect my thoughts. it was difficult. very awkward. not a little girl anymore.
struggled with a neutral face. careful. part of me didn't want to listen. i saw it coming. guess i didn't want to. tightness in chest. ached as you broke. thousand thoughts. ten different ways of saying it. none of them right. i guess i know you too well. is it my place to say it? dare i risk it? so i just listened. held your hand. and prayed.
beginning to see just how hard things can be. how much we have to let go. the importance of exercising patience and grace. how much time we spend hoping and praying that they'll rise up and take the lead. mm... wish it was my problem and not yours... just so you didn't have to carry the weight. because its easier to trust Him with my own problems? mmm... it shouldn't be that way...mmm something to work on.
praying for you. leaving it in His capable hands. love.
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Wednesday, September 19, 2007
meh
feels like i've been walking on eggshells all the time recently... i'm not sure i would go so far as to say that i feel choked or suffocated... (gosh this sounds so very emo) but i guess i find there are times now where i have to stop and breathe deep... do my best to not let it affect me. kinda hard sometimes to stop urself from reacting. meh. character building.
breathe in... breathe out...
with Your strength and grace. still smiling =)
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Tuesday, September 18, 2007
slowly and eventually
things i've learnt- vulnerability does not equal weakness...
- that sometimes... its really best to keep ur head down... and keep quiet, smile and nod.. or maybe.. don't smile...
- how to cook
- i'm a sugar addict
- that sometimes, when i think i've surrendered it all, i really haven't... i'd taken it back when i thought i wasn't looking... haha..
- my heart melts too easily... hahaha
things i'm learning (or trying to learn):- being a woman of God
- relying on His strength
- the extent of Your love
- patience, waiting for the right time
- humility
- to surrender it all
- its ok to be vulnerable
- balance... there are fine lines between many things...
things i should learn:- time management
- macro, ata and qm... hahaha
- how to play guitar
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Monday, September 17, 2007
and there it goes and hits me again....
Things i miss:
- roast chicken and chips... every lunch for like... 2 months...
- talking to the wednesday statues
- those re-enactments of sound of music and disney movies...
- believe it or not... school uniform
- compulsory sport!!!!!
- mitchell house!!!! "we'll bring your house down!!!!"
- Gilly!!! Logie!!! Stevo!!! arghhhhhhhhhhhhh
- all u who went off overseas... =(
Things that made me laugh:
random quotes: (thanks trace =D)
- "It's good to have your streak of fascism" - Dani (to Mrs. Logan)
- "What's another word for mean?" (maths class)... "Average!" "Medium!" "Nasty!" - Iz
- "People think i steal their stuff, really people just write their name on all my stuff" - Tracey
- "what is an explicit function?" (maths) "cosex" - Iz
- "Jay, look at my self portrait by Trisha" - Tess
- "See Angela! You and I think alike" - Dian "That's fine, so long as no one thinks like Tracey" - Mrs. Burrows
Ms Lovell: (courtesy of Bel... hehehe.. she was so hilarious she should have a whole post dedicated to her...)
- “Mother Teresa was not a good person…anyway, let’s move on. I’m not too keen on her”
- “It’s [the myth about seven celestial virgins] changed to all these virgins romping around heaven”
- “The word flaccid is only used in one context, and Amanda will tell you what that is later”
- “We have freedom of speech. Well no, actually we don’t. I suppose you can SAY whatever you want but who’s going to listen to you?”
- “Female liberation didn’t happen because women went out a burnt their bras. That was just a waste of time…and bras”
- “Let’s all take up a collection and bet that Ms. Hansen’s theme is hygiene”
- “I hope my mum’s late so I can study more”
- “Nobody wants to admit that they’re a nerd. Nerds rule the world. You’ll either be a nerd or be working for one”
- “Contamination and pollution just sound like the American dream is a pond and you poured a bunch of liquid nitrogen into it”
- When my daughter came home crying one day... telling me that the kids at school didn't like her.. i replied... "so what? nobody has to!"
Randomness:
- Dian and her imitation of a water fountain.... omgosh! hilarious!
- performances and renditions of 'a whole new world' and 'just around the river bend'
- Convincing phoony that drop bears really existed... HAHAHAHAH
- clockworks.... omgosh
- the bomb scare... hahahaha was kinda funny then... hilarious now.... HAHA
- ohhhhh hahaha muck up week.. where that guy came running into the school... momentarily distracting us with his too tight aths pants... throwing a water bomb at us... it not popping... but bouncing off us... and rolling across the floor... dian picking it up... dazed and confused... looking at it obviously thinking.. what is this? and the guy going... 'uhhhh... can i have that back?' dian just handing it over to him willingly and obligingly. then the guy running off... doing a circle and coming back to us... rethrowing the same water bomb at us... and it actually popping this time... omgosh... dian u were sooooo out of it...
- in the middle of a cricket match... throwing an imaginary ball to one another... and faking spectacular catches... i reckon the other teams thought we were insane... hehe scare tactic? HAHAHA
- hahaha freedom to promote girl superiority... HAHAHA jokes like:
How do you kill a bloke?
- Ask him to jump off his ego and land on his IQ
sigh... wish i had kept a blog back then or a journal... to remember all those hilarious moments... i guess i always thought i'd never ever forget them...hmm. haha its not a bad thing to occassionally look back... is it?
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Sunday, September 16, 2007
so blessed... so thankful
its been an amazingly awesome weekend... thursday till today... has been so intense. I've learnt so much... stepped out i guess... and yeah.... seen God do things that I wouldn't have thought were possible... theres been so many little things that have acted as confirmation... stuff like before even knowing about the video shown at BAFN... if u look at one of my posts this week... lyrics from everything- lifehouse, the song was on my heart the whole week... exact phrases or verses that came up during my qt and i wrote into my journal being confirmed in conversations with friends...
been so encouraging
LTC retreat was just such a great time of refreshing and yeah... encouragement... i feel so blessed and thankful... =D
Thank you for all the great friendships and relationships formed...
thank You so much....for the glimpse of the extent of Your love for me... for reminders... for enveloping me in Your love....
would You protect my heart... keep me close to You.
Lord, i'm so in love with You
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Friday, September 14, 2007
bumble bee
i love the smell of cookies... hehe.. yeah... i'm baking cookies nearly 4 in the morning... hahaha... BAFN food preparation has been... interesting... hahaha but i've enjoyed it... despite it all being quite last minute... think i've learnt alot this week... in my busyness.. finding quiet time.... learning to deal and perhaps even appreciate the feeling of sometimes being over my head...haha i guess its the recognition that God works best when I admit I need His strength...
For when I am weak, then I am strong
-2 Corinithians 12:10
You are my strength. Into Your hands... I commit again
So looking forward to this weekend...
Labels: bible verses, learning, ramblings
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Tuesday, September 11, 2007
breathless
You calm the storms; and You give me rest
You hold me in Your hands, You won't let me fall
You steal my heart; and You take my breath away
would You take me in? take me deeper now...
how can i stand here with You
and not be moved by You?
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Monday, September 10, 2007
there are times when i find myself missing biology... i find it so fascinating... learning about the complex and intricate way in which things work. Like for example, the human body... how... everything just... works.
haha like when you consider the genetic code, all thats required for lets say a condition like sickle cell anaemia is a chance mutation in the codon of a single nucleotide. (base -> codon -> nucleotide-> DNA -> chromosome (a single chromosome may have 220 million base pairs.)
instead of the base adenine--> thymine. the codon therefore becomes GTG instead of GAG... this is then in turn transcribed to GUG, and during translation, instead of the amino acid glutamic acid being attached to the polypeptide, valine is attached. because valine is slightly less polar than glutamic acid, the defective haemoglobin is less soluble than normal, and causes sticky fibres to form. the red blood cells become sickle shaped and clump together. as a result, it is unable to transport oxygen as effectively. this leads up to a number of other symptoms that disrupt the function of the body... such as shortness of breath, fatigue, organ damage. such a miniscule detail, and yet...
makes you realise how great God is... how creative and awesome He is.... to a point where i can't help but shake my head in wonder. Maker of heaven and earth.
You control the tiny things... things that we never even would think of worrying about... puts things into perspective.
wow.
Labels: praise, reminiscing, science
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Hey Amy!! U actually blog! Haha... And my gosh... U know Genetics soooo well! I've just learnt this like few weeks back and I can't remember a single thing!!!!! Ur insane! Hahahaha.. Kiddin.. ;p Anyway, take care.. C ya soon! *Hugs*
hahah yep =D just started... and really don't know how long it'll last for... hahaha... do u blog?
hehe i miss bio sooo much... hahaha i remember useless bits and pieces... hehehe
*hugs* hopefully i'll cya this week =D
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Sunday, September 9, 2007
hehe
great times! this week (after wed of course... when all those assignments were done) has been awesome... hehe full of deep and meaningful late night (or even during the day) convos, lying on the grass (which i have missed soooo much) quality time spent with people...
got to see my like favouritest person in the whole world twice this week!!! TO came to visit thurs and today!!! =D hehe always awesome seeing you... love you gorgeous! lying on the grass. sharing a romantic *cough* afternoon with one another! hahahaha...treasure all the times we spend together... hehe i've really missed you. thanks for the hugs and kisses! love love love!!!!
haha twas awesome fun today, cricket. park. sun. sunnies. hehe awesomely funny people. gang up tiggy. loads of white bread. acting like kids. hahaha
thank You for friends... old and new....
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Saturday, September 8, 2007
i was reminded today about the story of lazarus. John 11.
2 days passed. Lazarus had already died. most people would consider that the end. yet we forget sometimes that our God is an awesome God. mmm and put Him in a box. God has power and dominion over death itself!
I guess... when i think about it, i find myself asking the question, could i truly have the faith and trust to keep on believing... and wait upon the Lord even when all hope seems well... kinda unrealistic?
I remember a while ago... pastor Tim P shared the story of a father who's only son became seriously ill... and after pleading with God for his son's life for 2 days, not eating or sleeping.. his son died. but the father didn't stop praying... he told God that he would not leave the room his son was in until his son was given back to him. after hours and hours of praying... the man declared to his son 'in the name of Jesus Christ, stand up and walk!' and beyond all rational thought... beyond the natural... God moved in the supernatural... and the man's son got up. He told his father that he had met with Jesus. Jesus had told this boy... that it was not yet the boy's time... because His father refused to let him go.
There are times when God saves us at the 11th hour... 59th minute... and so we seek His intervention until that last moment. But i guess... the question is... can i go beyond that? can i have that same tenacity as the father? can i persevere and trust in God? How much faith do i have in the Lord? mmm... i think its nice to be reminded that even AFTER we think the deal is closed, even after the 12th hour... God can STILL intervene and turn it all around for His glory...
I choose to trust in You. I will wait upon You... be glorified in all my circumstances.
Labels: bible verses, faith
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Friday, September 7, 2007
all glory to You
i've always said that i find the concept of blogging... unusual... haha something about posting my thoughts on the net... for all to see... seems kinda strange to me... i never know what to write... I have actually started blogs before... but really... all i post up there are quizzes... and mmm superficial-bored-procrastinating-posts.
i've always been bad with journals and diaries. i'd start. The end. hahaha... not only that... but I wince whenever i read through those few entries that i've kept... i lacked the quantity... and really... the quality was so not there either. hahaha
but recently... i've started to carry a journal around with me and pen a few thoughts, stuff that makes me smile or laugh... small joys... blessings that i see. and i guess... the thoughts have started to bubble up and i get this insane urge to share them... ultimately... i want this blog to glorify Your Name.
'not to us, O Lord, not to us
but to Your name be the glory,
because of Your love and faithfulness'
-Psalm 115:1
all glory to You. you deserve my all. i am so in love with You.
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