and its a little embarrassing to think about herself just a couple of years ago. major cringing when she thinks of how she acted back then. she winces as she reads through her journals and diaries. spelling errors here, huge grammatical mistakes there. all those so called grievous wrongs committed against her that threatened her very happiness seem so very trivial now. at this point, she cannot comprehend why she wasted so much energy and effort. she is amazed by how different her priorities were, the amount of time she ate away, obsessing and feeding her heart with useless nothings. and she groans at how ridiculous those 'crushes' were. she realizes just how young she was, and how she was in such a hurry to grow up. then she catches herself wondering gosh... is this what it feels like to be old and maturing??? bahhhhh!!!

shes been in a reflective mood lately. re-evaluating certain priorities, characteristics and flaws. sometimes (more often than not) she struggles to focus, coming to the realization just how easy it is for other things to take her heart. He reminds her to seek Him first. in the quiet and stillness she prays for an undivided heart. to be desperate for more. to hear His voice.


she is constantly in awe of how far He has brought her. of how He walks with her and calls her His.

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