Saturday, May 31, 2008
be patient little one
she is restless. in one hand, she holds a pretty pink watering can. in the other hand she grips a trowel thats a little too heavy for her. the skies are clear and the sun warms her face. but she doesn't notice. she's too busy staring intently at the ground. her father vigilantly watches over her from a short distance, fiercely protective and utterly devoted. he never takes his eyes off her.
she huffs a little. the exhalation of air is surprisingly loud for one so small. her features are drawn together as the scowl deepens. she bites her lower lip, thinking. finally she squats down, and begins to dig.
'princess? why are you digging?'
she loves it when he calls her princess. she glances up, wide eyed as a guilty look flashes across her face. 'i... uh, mm no reason daddy'
he squats down and gently takes the trowel from her hands. she again notices how large his hands are, how her little hand barely covers his palm. its funny how he towers over her, yet she finds such security in his arms. he grins as he notices a smudge of dirt on her rosy cheek. he wonders at such vulnerability and sweetness. a burst of love explodes in his chest.
'you know... it takes a little while for it to grow...' 'oh.. i know... thats why i waited 'til today.' she grins proudly
he laughs softly and tweaks her nose. 'sweetheart, when i said a little while, well.. i didn't mean just a day.'
'oh...' her face falls. 'but i want to see the pretty flowers now... i thought that maybe, you know... if i dug it up just a little... like a teensy tiny little bit... i could see how much they've grown...?'
she half expects her father to get angry, to scold her for not trusting him and being silly. but she is young, she has not even begun to understand the heart of her father and the extent of his love. he notices part of the flower bulb uncovered by his daughter's digging. as he carefully covers it again with the soil he teaches his daughter the lesson of patience.
'thats the funny thing about flowers, all you get to see is whats above and on the surface, you don't get to see the roots growing deeper into the ground. and the roots are what allow the flower to get the nutrients it needs to grow, the roots help the flower to stand firm and not be yanked away by the wind. if you try to dig the flower up now, before its time, you could be taking away its opportunity to grow. you could kill it.' he pats the soil gently, and waters it.
'oh' she blushes and tucks a strand of hair behind her ear. 'i'm very sorry daddy...' hoisting her onto his shoulders as her delighted laughter rings across the garden...
he smiles as he replies, "how about you wait with me? I promise you, it'll be worth the wait."
He has made everything beautiful in its time.
- Ecclesiastes 3:11
patience. faith and trust. wait upon the Lord
enveloped in a Father's love. Abba Father
....learning....
to lay me down....
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Wednesday, May 21, 2008
heartbreaker
she tries hard not to let it show that he disarms her with his smile. that his playfulness and boyishness makes her lose her concentration.but he knows that the way he says her name makes her melt. mhmm... he's gonna be a heartbreaker she thinks to herself. haha the kid is pulling at my heart strings...and manipulating me ever so slightly... hahaha
he's rather adorable though... and making progress!! with a whole lot of cajoling and bribery from me. hahaha
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Tuesday, May 20, 2008
walk with me
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.
- Hebrews 12:1-3
you know what i love? i don't have to be perfect! haha. cause perfect? i am not.... i'm far from it...
i love the fact that my walk with Him is a continuous one, a constant journey. it doesn't happen overnight... good things need to be worked on.
joyful hearts
to grow in love
and find rest in You
Your grace is all i need.... You're strong when i am weak
Labels: bible verses, FirstLove, future, perseverance, worship
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Saturday, May 10, 2008
the games we play
i don't like this game anymore. she says to him
its a stupid game.
he looks at her blankly.
tag, you're it. tag, now i'm it. bleagh.
the game is stupid. she insists.
he raises his eyebrow.
she tries again
duck duck goose.
you're the goose.
he scratches the back of his head.
ready or not here i come?!? i was ready at one-mississippi.
am i hiding or are you?
and she waits. and waits for the lightbulb above his head to flicker.
no such luck.
mentally, her eyes roll to the back of her head.
she silently glances upward to ask for the patience to deal with it all.
he looks uncertain
and her ramblings crescendos into a hugely embarassing climatic nothing:
round and round we go where it stops...
i don't know
ah-tishoo ah-tishoo...
we all fall down.
marco....
you're supposed to say polo.
the musics stopped...
but there are no chairs.
you don't get it. and i clearly have no idea...
the rules keep changing. there are no rules!
what game are we playing?
either he doesn't hear her, because he isn't listening, or he chooses not to hear her because its just easier to deal with her that way.
she might as well be speaking in a foreign language. she might as well not say anything at all.
perhaps he just doesn't get her, perhaps he's just used to her tirades, perhaps he finds them entertaining.
perhaps perhaps perhaps.
i'm tired. she says. stick a fork in me, i'm just about done. the game is...
not that bad. he interjects.
he laughs and flashes her a grin
she rolls her eyes again. thinking... not for you maybe.
chewing on her thumbnail, she weighs it all up.
mmm ok... maybe one more round. she thinks to herself.
in the end, the stupid game still draws her in. but perhaps its 'cause deep down, she hopes that maybe... just maybe... one day, she'll get it.
or maybe at least, one day she'll get smarter.
;)
on a side note: gotten parental approval for snowboarding... =D hahaha cannot wait! its been way too long. ok... almost 1 down... overall 3 more to go.
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to chocolate overdose, super highness and crashing hard, taboo and overall great company. cheers =D
ok... i've had my enjoyment for the weekend...
better sleep now
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Thursday, May 8, 2008
majorly stressed. stop wasting time!
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Wednesday, May 7, 2008
i want! i want
urgh i want my own flying suit now!!!!! and i want those palm repulsors! totally cool! haha wish i were genius level and filthy rich so i could make it all! haha i've always wanted to fly... that would be the best feeling ever! the only dreams i remember (because they're recurring dreams) are either dreams of flying, or my teeth falling out... (don't laugh!! it totally freaks me out!!! they just start to like crumble and i'm like spitting my own teeth out one by one. not cool.)
iron man was really good! haha very entertaining, i loved tony stark's wit and humor! haha i know some of us girls were swooning a little there... (hahaha you know who you are, i won't embarrass you!) arrogance/confidence? very fine line. though, as attractive as it may seem initially, i'm guessing that after awhile, you'd be on the verge of telling a guy like that to get over themselves. haha its probably best that he stays fictional... HAHA
haha i was telling GY how going to the cinema is so bad for me, sitting in the previews i realize... oh no, i am going to be so broke. (oh! oh! i could just... not go for the previews... then i wouldn't be so tempted... nahh who am i kidding... makes no difference really anyway i'd still want to see the movies)
HAHA
and the first two movies are being released during exam prep or exam time... oohhh booyyyy. self control amy! self discipline!!
reallyreallywanttowatch movie list:
- indiana jones and the kingdom of the crystal skull
- chronicles of narnia: prince caspian
- the dark knight
ok, now i have to focus and catch up with all my work... is that a rude awakening or what? stop procrastinating amy!!! focus! focus!! alrightythen
Labels: procrastinating (how sad is it that i have this as a label?), ramblings, true story
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Tuesday, May 6, 2008
over and done
finally. moving on now.
its funny how you spend so much time with people and then, you part your separate ways. well... not really laugh out loud funny, but one of those, short exhalation of air and sardonic sort of smile 'funny'
anyway... its done, no looking back and wondering whether it was the right decision to make...
better not to have any regrets, and sometimes i think that having no regrets involves not thinking too much about it. instead: focusing on the future, not always hesitantly taking small steps forward and looking back.
its over and done.
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Sunday, May 4, 2008
greedyguts
more of you Lord, and less of me.
You're absolutely unbelievably awesome.
i would write more, but i've left my laptop charger at my 'other home' hehehe and so my battery has like 5 minutes left. all i can say is God is amazing. and it is so good to just come before Him and soak in His presence. refreshed because of You, tired in the body, but buzzing and so excited in the the spirit. =D
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Friday, May 2, 2008
moment of weakness
after the day i've had... you'll forgive me this moment of weakness. after the day i've had? i give myself permission to collapse into a fit of gushiness and gah gah. so excuse me for a moment? while i get this out of my system? haha
omgosh omgosh omgosh!!! arghhhh melt melt melt! heart in a puddle, right there, down on the floor. haha ok, so maybe you're wondering what has gotten my heart aflutter:
every time she walks away from you she's miserable, and i care about how she feels, i care! i know what you think, but this isn't just a crush. ok? maybe after so many years, you just don't see it. do you know how many women think like that? and look like that? and laugh like that? and care? one. so far i've met one. and yes, she's... she's out of my league in every possible way, but i don't care. she... dazzles me. and i'm not stupid enough to hope that one day i'll meet someone like her when the time is right, because i won't. i love her. ok? and i guarantee you, i wouldn't make her cry.- dell private practice
cuteness!!! be still my beating heart. hahaha when was the last time i absolutely melted? haha could very well be zac efron in hairspray, oh boy. zac efron and dell have beautiful babyblues i think i have a thing for blue eyes. and gorgeous smiles, but that was no revelation to me. hahaha
but i don't think its the attractiveness that set my heart badoombadoom
rather, it was the intensity? that he was willing to fight for her? girls want a guy who thinks that she's worth fighting for. (agree with me on this one girls?) a guy who thinks that she's worth pursuing? haha but then again, things are way more complicated than just that.
tv, movies, books, etc have ruined me for life! hahaha i'm being melodramatic. why is it always so cute and meltyourheart when its fictional, but soooo embarassing or cringe-worthy when it happens to you in real life? huh? huh? meh, i find myself confusing sometimes.
haha ok... enough. no more gushing.
well... at least for tonight ;) gnite
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