Monday, June 30, 2008
=D
haha tonight was loads of fun... many priceless moments!!
'do we have to pay for water?'
nobu to the food court
and the oh crap... i-don't-think-i-have-enough-money-look moment... hahahaha
very touched! totally did not expect it... lovelovelove! tuesday! =D haha totally excited!
and i'm kinda wrecked... trying not to get so wrecked in the busyness and catching up... despite the fact that its soooo good! hahaha ok amy, take it easy... you need some rest too... gosh... i cannot believe that in highschool i
needed 9 hours sleep minimum... and i was dying by 11pm...
hmmm i'm considering going to sleep now... watching friends, or get started on one of the jap dramas... but there are too many.. i don't know where to start! haha
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Monday, June 23, 2008
The One i can't deny
its undeniable how brilliant You are
in an unreliable world You shine like a star
its unforgettable now that we've come this far
its unmistakable that Your undeniable
You're the only One when this world collides
The One that I can't deny
its funny how you get so busy during semester... and you say... come holidays i'm going to do all of the above.. but really....holidays are in some sense worse...
in the busyness do i neglect Him? do i neglect THE most important relationship in my life? because really... when its holidays... i should be more than quadrupling the amount of time i spend with Him...(haha i just realised i don't really know the equivalent of quadrupling in terms of x10 [decading?]) i mean... i make the effort and time for friends, so really the big question for me these holidays:
are you making time for The ONE?
because spending time with friends is important, but He is THE ONE. FirstLove and i think i've been sidelining Him too much already.
in the quiet, in the stillness i know that You are God.
in the quiet and in the stillness... busyness does not seem conducive haha.
stilling my heart, searching for Him in the quiet place... seeking Him.
Labels: FirstLove
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Saturday, June 14, 2008
VCN has been dobbing on me?!?! =P
ok ok... so i've been facebooking, and posting comments on other ppls blogs... its because i miss you all! hahaha
and i'm procrastinating. there i admit it... first step yes? i have a problem. bahhh but i'm improving... studied more this semester than i did last year.
geeezz so bad! i've made all these plans already to catch up with ppl and i haven't even finished exams yet! only one more... monday..... then freedom! i keep getting distracted, with people calling up or texting saying we should meet up... though i've realised that sometimes i'll say... i'll definitely catch up with you during the hols, but i never get round to it... =S hmmm... not good not good. something i need to rectify. best thing to do? hound me and guilt trip me. probably better to make more concrete plans as opposed to 'sometime during the hols'
theres too many ppl i've lost contact with, or don't see enough of... =( something thats been weighing a bit on my mind...
anyway for those ppl who are procrastinating as well by reading my blog this is for you:
and i was thinking of saving up these next two for valentines day... but too cute!
see what i mean??? so very true for primary school... why was it that when a guy liked a girl back then, he would mercilessly bully her? or even how you would ignore them but still hope that they would notice you? seems completely illogical! what is that?! confusing times... puppy love
hahaha was enlightening talking to some of these guys years later getting bizarre explanations for weird behavior and seeing just how embarassed they are now. so didn't get guys then, can't say i'm much better off now...
but primary school crushes and even early highschool crushes make for hilarious conversation now.... yep!
ohhh i just found a really cool shortcut... CTRL + 1(or whatever number the tab is) and it'll switch between tabs...
ok ok stop procrastinating!
Labels: procrastinating (how sad is it that i have this as a label?)
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Thursday, June 12, 2008
more
i've drawn a blank... i seem to be doing that a lot lately...i wish you could see... that theres so much more than this.
we were meant to live for so much more
i had a lot longer post. a really long one. but yeah... not my place, not appropriate. too...
___ so i deleted pretty much all of it.
Jeremiah 24:6-7
interceding. You promised.
(and how whiny petulant did that sound? lol) that image is still clear in my mind. i refuse to give up. because i am confident of only one thing, and that is You. You never fail. so i'm clinging onto Your promises. its out of my hands, surrendered into Yours.
help me to keep my eyes fixed on Your face.
Your freedom and life.
peace. wisdom. trust. focus.ok. i'm feeling better now =) thank You!
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Wednesday, June 11, 2008
endearing
my bro has a habit of leaving toothpaste tubes and not throwing them out... sooo for a long while, i've always thought... how much effort can it take to throw the tube out? geeezzzz... lazybum
then, last night a bit of inspiration hit me. i ran to his room,clutching the empty toothpaste tube and asked...
'its not because you're lazy is it? its because you don't want to waste any of the toothpaste. you keep trying to squeeze it all out' after a moment of confusion, a sheepish look crossed my brothers face. it was at this point that i experienced a HUGE burst of affection.
'omgosh! you are such a cheap skate! THERE IS NOTHING LEFT! i know i should be irritated, but for some reason, its strangely cute' 'cute??' (hahaha its funny how some guys like being called cute, and others don't)
'ok... endearing' hahaha there are many thing about my brother that i find endearing...like how he stopped playing call of duty 4 on his favorite level and saved it so that I could play it... how he wanders into my room and sits on my bed to talk to me...how he saves music that he thinks i'll like...how he's protective to the point where i think maybe it was good fortune that he wasn't present in those situations. how he jokes about having the birthright. how he hugs me awkwardly and i had to teach him how to hug properly hahahaha... how he asks me every time he gets his hair cut, is it symmetrical? coz i swear this side burn is longer.... HAHAHA... how he cannot resist ice-cream, cheese, bread and gummy lollies but he has unbelievable self control with everything else.
tehehe its good to have you round
ok amy focus! 2 more to go!!!
business finance tomorrow.... studyyyyyyy gosh... i am so stuffed... i don't understand why they don't put up answers to the past year exams! grrr.... meh... i'll be done on monday!!!!!! =D partayyyyyy
Labels: family
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Tuesday, June 3, 2008
the challenge
sometimes God whispers, and then sometimes... He shouts. =D hahaha(perhaps He shouts because i wasn't listening hard enough... but for whatever reason, boy is it refreshing)there have been a few things that God's been really teaching me and laying on my heart, some of the lessons a little painful, some of them... well... =Dbut... i think i know now what i've been saving up for... or what i will be continuing to save up for. short term missions! no idea where at this point... or when...or for how long... but possibly tentatively the end of this year or beginning of next year? but i know that i really want to work with children. or do something practical... like help build a school or something (despite the fact that i have noooooo idea how... and i'm probably as weak as)church has been having a missions week called beyond. all our missionaries that we support come back (or their representatives) and share with us what God has been doing.... and wow.it stirs something up in the spirit. hahaha embarrassingly i always get choked-up-shush-don't-look-at-me-i've-just-got-something-in-my-eye. its encouraging, uplifting and challenging.i know that for me, the idea of long term missions is kind terrifying... like going overseas to South Africa (which was where Sunday nights speaker was from) where you generally hear more stories about people being killed or persecuted. i don't think God has called me overseas to serve, i know He's begun to give me small glimpses of His plan for me (and excitingexcitingexciting!) haha but then again sad to say... secretly in my heart... i hope that God doesn't call me into long term missions. so i wonder if that prevents me from hearing His call...mmm... but then again, living in the center of God's will is the place to be. so honestly.... i don't know how i would respond if God were to call me into long term missions. i hope that i have the faith, courage and trust to follow Him. the conviction and passion to want to see His people come back to Him. to love the lost the way He loves them. but God knows my heart better than i know it.... and they're just words without action to back it up. so honestly... i don't know...some of the things that really stuck with me from sunday:
- it is far better to die with fire and passion in your blood. is your passion God given? or have you given your passion to something else that does not deserve it? corrie ten boom passionately served God until she was 86 years old and no longer had the power of speech. a friend of Floyd (the speaker) discovered that he was going to die of cancer, and told himself, that if he was going to die, it was going to be overseas doing God's work. so he bought a round the world ticket, and went to the most dangerous and unreached people groups of the world. to have that kind of passion...
- believe for the grace of God to help you fulfill the will of God
- seeing footage of the Me'en people, sharing how God has brought freedom into their lives, breaking the chains of oppression, fear, violence and spiritual strongholds
- whenever i watch footage of African people praising God it amazes me how from the little toe to the huge smiles on their face,they worship Him with their whole body
- such energy and passion. i want to do that...to worship God with absolutely everything within me... with every breath i take.
- corporate worship is always so uplifting. hearing all the voices as one? getting a glimpse of what it would be like to worship Him in eternity, with all the saints. wow wow wow.
Lord i stand in the midst of a multitude of those from every tribe and tongue...
we are Your people redeemed by Your blood...
rescued from death by Your love.
there are no words good enough to thank You
there are no words to express my praise
but i will lift up my voice and sing from my heart with all of my strength.
Labels: future, learning, praise, worship
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