Tuesday, June 3, 2008
the challenge
sometimes God whispers, and then sometimes... He shouts. =D hahaha(perhaps He shouts because i wasn't listening hard enough... but for whatever reason, boy is it refreshing)there have been a few things that God's been really teaching me and laying on my heart, some of the lessons a little painful, some of them... well... =Dbut... i think i know now what i've been saving up for... or what i will be continuing to save up for. short term missions! no idea where at this point... or when...or for how long... but possibly tentatively the end of this year or beginning of next year? but i know that i really want to work with children. or do something practical... like help build a school or something (despite the fact that i have noooooo idea how... and i'm probably as weak as)church has been having a missions week called beyond. all our missionaries that we support come back (or their representatives) and share with us what God has been doing.... and wow.it stirs something up in the spirit. hahaha embarrassingly i always get choked-up-shush-don't-look-at-me-i've-just-got-something-in-my-eye. its encouraging, uplifting and challenging.i know that for me, the idea of long term missions is kind terrifying... like going overseas to South Africa (which was where Sunday nights speaker was from) where you generally hear more stories about people being killed or persecuted. i don't think God has called me overseas to serve, i know He's begun to give me small glimpses of His plan for me (and excitingexcitingexciting!) haha but then again sad to say... secretly in my heart... i hope that God doesn't call me into long term missions. so i wonder if that prevents me from hearing His call...mmm... but then again, living in the center of God's will is the place to be. so honestly.... i don't know how i would respond if God were to call me into long term missions. i hope that i have the faith, courage and trust to follow Him. the conviction and passion to want to see His people come back to Him. to love the lost the way He loves them. but God knows my heart better than i know it.... and they're just words without action to back it up. so honestly... i don't know...some of the things that really stuck with me from sunday:
- it is far better to die with fire and passion in your blood. is your passion God given? or have you given your passion to something else that does not deserve it? corrie ten boom passionately served God until she was 86 years old and no longer had the power of speech. a friend of Floyd (the speaker) discovered that he was going to die of cancer, and told himself, that if he was going to die, it was going to be overseas doing God's work. so he bought a round the world ticket, and went to the most dangerous and unreached people groups of the world. to have that kind of passion...
- believe for the grace of God to help you fulfill the will of God
- seeing footage of the Me'en people, sharing how God has brought freedom into their lives, breaking the chains of oppression, fear, violence and spiritual strongholds
- whenever i watch footage of African people praising God it amazes me how from the little toe to the huge smiles on their face,they worship Him with their whole body
- such energy and passion. i want to do that...to worship God with absolutely everything within me... with every breath i take.
- corporate worship is always so uplifting. hearing all the voices as one? getting a glimpse of what it would be like to worship Him in eternity, with all the saints. wow wow wow.
Lord i stand in the midst of a multitude of those from every tribe and tongue...
we are Your people redeemed by Your blood...
rescued from death by Your love.
there are no words good enough to thank You
there are no words to express my praise
but i will lift up my voice and sing from my heart with all of my strength.
Labels: future, learning, praise, worship
Updated@11:40 AM
so... whatcha thinking? =)
